Lately in my quiet time I’ve been going through 2 Samuel and Psalms. I usually read one chapter of each every morning and keep them lined up (for example, I’ll ready 2 Samuel 10 and Psalm 110, or 2 Samuel 23 and Psalm 123). I’ve been coming up on the monstrous Psalm 119, and I have to admit I wasn’t looking forward to reading this behemoth of a Psalm. 176 verses, titles like Heth and Yodh (makes me think of Yoda…), and 8 whole pages for this one Psalm. I’ve never read it all the way through before, and when I finally came to it, I was rather reluctant to read it. Thankfully, God gave me the perfect opportunity to read it: on my first full day off in forever, which happened to be an extremely rainy day (I LOVE rain), and Sugarbrowns happened to be 3/4 of the way empty (quiet, calm coffee shop = heaven).
I began reading it, and discovered it to be one of the richest Psalms I’ve ever read. There were so many beautiful verses, many with unique ways of saying what they needed to say. Here are the ones that I underlined:
I will praise you with an upright heart (v. 7)
I will not neglect your word. (v.16)
Open my eyes that I may see (v. 18)
I am laid low in the dust; (v. 25)
My soul is weary with sorrow; (v. 28)
Keep me from deceitful ways; (v. 29)
…set my heart free. (v. 32)
Direct me in the path of your commands, for there I find delight. (v. 35)
I remember your ancient laws, O Lord, and I find comfort in them. (v. 52)
It was good for me to be afflicted so that I might learn your decrees. (v. 71)
May your unfailing love be my comfort, (v. 76)
My soul faints with longing for your salvation, (v. 81)
My eyes fail, looking for your promise; I say, “When will you comfort me?” (v. 82)
Though I am like a wineskin in the smoke, I do not forget your decrees. (v. 83)
How long must your servant wait? (v. 84)
To all perfection I see a limit; but your commands are boundless. (v. 96)
I have suffered much; preserve my life, O Lord, (v. 107)
Though I constantly take my life in my hands, I will not forget your law. (v. 109)
My eyes fail, looking for your salvation, looking for your righteous promise. (v. 123)
I am your servant; give me discernment (v. 125)
The unfolding of your words gives light; (v. 130)
I call with all my heart; answer me, O Lord, (v. 145)
I call out to you; save me (v. 146)
Look upon my suffering and deliver me, (v. 153)
…preserve my life according to your promise. (v. 154)
May my cry come before you, O Lord; give me understanding according to your word. (v. 169)
Let me live that I may praise you, (v. 175)
I have strayed like a lost sheep. Seek your servant, for I have not forgotten your commands. (v. 176)
The Psalmist really seemed to have it rough. He was suffering, crying out to God, waiting for Him to answer. Here was the Psalmist, suffering, weary from being persecuted by his enemies; and though he had taken his life into his own hands countless times, straying like a lost sheep from his Shepherd, he still realizes that he must cry out to the Lord to be saved. Wow.
This Psalm has really encouraged me. I can understand some of what the Psalmist is going through. Taking my life into my own hands (v. 109), straying away from the Father (v. 176); I feel like I can definitely relate. Though I do these things (just like the Psalmist), God is always waiting there for me to come back to Him. Even if I think I can plan out my life, plotting out each and every next step I’m going to take, forging my own path… there He is, gently (usually… sometimes it takes a little more force to get through my thick-headedness) prodding me into the right direction.
In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps.
Proverbs 16:9
Be encouraged knowing that Christ IS with you. Though you may stray from His path, He is always there, seeking you out, offering His wonderful Grace to those who believe in Him.